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The seeds for this site

Thirty years ago, plus some

1985-86 was a pivotal year for me, one of several when I only knew to move and knew not where. I do remember in that year being fascinated with a branch of contemporary Christian thought about narrative as a key to, well, the stories we tell ourselves. Even at that time, I thought, this could work, long-distance, in prisons.

Twenty years ago

A family member is removed from the streets–that’s the good news–and incarcerated–that’s the bad news. I hire inmates for home renovations. Things could have gone better.

Just about 10 years ago

Sending books to inmates. Setting up this blogsite. Things still crashing in a pile of ashes.


What drives the urgency now? Not enough. The Prison Book Project will need dedication to get that locomotive in motion. The movement has begun!

More of the story leading to this website

Here, the shifting sands of 2008 and what was dislodged in my memory

Here, this development of this site from the same time period onward.


The Detective’s Story

I will tell you another story.vintage-interrogation-lightbulb
I went to a prison to interview two inmates for separate jobs, the first one wanted a solicitor but the second didn’t.
I met the solicitor inside the prison and as the guards were checking us in the solicitor realized he had forgot his picture ID badge in London, this was about 90 min drive, so they wouldn’t let him through and the first inmate was taken back to his cell.
I interviewed the second and then went back to my police station.
One week later I found out that the first inmate was searched and sat in the waiting room, he was then told about the solicitor’s mistake and he was then taken back through the search room, they again sat him down on the metal detector chair and it buzzed, they search him and found a razor knife up his back side which didn’t sound the first time through because it was further up, the second time through and it was working its way out.


When they interviewed him and asked what he had planned to do with this knife he said that he was going to slit the interviewing officer with it…ME!!!
I don’t know what this means but what are the chances, the solicitor stated he had never forgotten his ID in all the years he had been doing this job.


Example of foundation story


My Mother was a very tough woman as I was growing up. Reflecting back from the time we were staying in Buruburu when I was like 6 years or so. She could not take jokes for reality, especially if another child accused me of doing something. I bet you know what would happen to me. She was working as a Civil servant in the office of the President, then Daniel Arap Moi.
I was then taken to live with my grandmother in Shags to Join school from class one. It was very nice living with her, and she loved me so much. When I reached class four (Primary Four), all hell broke loose, I had some friends that my grandmother didn’t want me to associate with, If you have watched the comedy “Everybody hates Chris”, all relatives could just wait for my mother to visit and report me. My mother could beat me thoroughly. It went that way, until I did my Class eight exams. Then it was time to go for high school.
In 2001, My Mother was called by God, to leave her work, Pension, Salary and any other benefits for retirement to go to Bible College to serve God, work in God’s Government. She was hoping that when Moi retrenched civil servants in 2000, she could be on the list, she was not retrenched. She had to hear the voice of God and did as God said. Then I was also to go to school in form one. Thank God to her late friend Jemima Marende who was very supporting of her? After her college, she knew that “The work is plentiful, but the laborers are few”. She was received by Men in charge of the “Work”, at some point she felt very frustrated in her calling, But God in his own timing shown himself to be faithful.
Several things common between My Mother and Grandmother is that they were all jovial, hospitable, honest, women of integrity and could speak truth to power no matter the consequences. For my mother “Men in Charge of the Work” could not intimidate her with being fired. She could speak her mind, as long as she knows who called her.
As I finish, I want to say that, her death was and still is a big blow to me, for I was not prepared for her to die, before she passed on, on Monday 5th July 2017, I work up, And there was a bird on the roof, you know these black birds, I took a stone threw at it and rebuked it’s message. But when I went back to the house, my inner Spirit told me, “today you will be fired from the campaign for a week”, are you prepared. Then I said, yeah I can get another Aspirant to work for. When I reached town, I was truly fired by the person I was Campaigning for, for a week, I came home to make contacts with other Aspirants. One of them agreed to give me appointment at 6:30 Am the next day. I woke up at 6 Am on Tuesday 6th July 2017, sent a message to the Aspirant to ask if we are still meeting, He never answered until 7:Pm when he gave me a call that he has been waiting for me since 6:30 Am, I quickly changed and went. When we just finished the meeting, I saw my sister calling, I said, God I hope the worst has not happened. When I picked the call, I could hear her screaming and crying loud, she told me, Jimmy Our Mother has passed away. I got very confused and shouted, but I didn’t want people to think that I have gone mad. I calmed and started singing some songs my Grandmother use to sing, every time she was told that someone had passed away. Given time with her again, I have some questions to ask her. GOD GAVE AND GOD TOOK AWAY, MAY HIS NAME BE PRAISED ALWAYS.



Great Tidings to All People of Good Will

Great ideas here!

In a nutshell:

  1. Young people, your lives matter, and all you have to offer to a world in need.
  2. There are many freedom fighters here among us.
  3. Study the history of your world.
  4. There is no justification for war, not for efficacy to begin with.
  5. The internet can be a force for good to unite the world in instant communication.
  6. Compassion, collaboration are activities that unite for mutual support, igniting forces stronger than dissonant forces.
  7. This is the Age of the Individual.
  8. Know your mind and train it well to be a force for good.
  9. The Age of Women is also emergent.
  10. Remember, follow no one who does not support your individual contribution and responsibility.

Discerning What Is True

Can you imagine our world without the message that Jesus delivered, our lives empty of the grace of his teachings and example? To try to imagine a world without that example in it is to begin to see how revolutionary that message was in its time.

This time now is another time of such a revolution.

Many voices would be the harbinger of times to come. How to know which to listen to?

Discerning messages when completely new: what to look for, how to evaluate

When a message is completely new, how to judge? The standard of judgment by community consensus won’t apply. The test of time cannot be applied in our time.

Every person’s inner witness will be their guide to a revolutionarily new perspective that

  • clarifies and integrates the old
  • comes at a critical juncture in human development
  • is functional in practice


  1. an entirely new conceptualization
    • aperture widening, paradigm/perspective shifting
    • coming by necessity at a threshold of development for the human species
    • offending the status quo
  2. integrates, stimulates and evaluates what has come before
    • secular and traditional religious
    • conversant with what has come before–antagonizing the backwards facing, synergizing with the forward thinking
    • reforming but more likely anticipating complete revolution, warning of natural consequences of repeated error. I.e., the greater the need for reformation, the sharper the bend in the ellipsis of the revolution, the turning point.
  3. comes at a great hinge of history in the formation of the human race as a collective on ever greater scale–family/tribe to world-unified.
  4. is practical
    • illustrated in the way of being and relating with more harmony and congruence, clarity and purpose resulting in lasting contribution, permanent accomplishment and improved relationships
    • touching all aspects of life, not categorically but with a framework that applies to all situations
  5. Is multi-level
    • understood at simplest levels, with depths found only after long exposure
    • clean of bias, adjusted for the audience comprehension
    • expansive in perspective, aperture widening (or rather, greasing the aperture for flexible convergence)
    • Is translatable
      • language is simple
      • syncretism is inevitable?


At whatever level your contribution may be given, whatever small part you may play in this great evolutionary change and emergence, let this Christmas be a reminder that there is a calling for you and that you seek to respond because this is the only means for fulfillment and satisfaction in life. This is the only basis for real and lasting relationships. The Meaning of Christmas (December 23, 1994)


What Works: Extraordinary Means


God Does What Works

When nothing else will do, Divine Messages do get through, sometimes through extraordinary means:

  • Miracles of divine intervention.
  • Extra Sensory Perception.
  • Having a “sixth sense” or an intuition.
  • Paranormal experience, Seen and unseen, falsifiable and unfalsifiable.

If It Exists in the Imagination It Has a Demonstrable Reality

Extraordinary events and abilities are found in the world in the form of reports, at least, which is a minimum threshold of existence, to exist in people’s minds as a thought.

Memes, rumors, reports of unusual events become objects of ridicule, yet this very existence in the cultural awareness is a reality in the thought environment.  The imagination as a field in the mental environment needs management and control.

What Works: Setting Intention

Thoughts, words, intention. Do these things have a corporeality? In this era of internet communication when ideas travel the globe at roughly the speed of light, the power of thought and word behind action–which is only an opportunity away–are brightly evident. Words are preceded by intention; they can signal or mask intention behind action.

Remember, we have said that God does what works. –Greater Community Spirituality: Who is Wisdom meant for?

Things Do Go Bump in the Night

A humanistic, rational, science-based way of knowing dominates the mainstream mindset, with some tolerance for individual experience outside the norm. In this culture, unusual or unexplained phenomena could well be under-reported because they exist outside the norm; as not normal they exist in the realm of the  “weird,”  somewhat shameful, and not mentionable. Yet the reports of unexplained and extraordinary phenomena persist.

Demons by Any Name

Exorcism and reiki work attest to entities existing on some other level than manifest reality as commonly understood.

The Placebo Effect

The power of suggestion can be demonstrated to satisfaction. To every and anyone’s satisfaction? Well, perhaps not. But for those who avail themselves of this power can

Energy work, energy balancing, any or all techniques involving unseen forces and energies–acupuncture/acupressure, allopathy, chiropractics, nutrition, and kinesiology–use non-invasive, drug-free, natural solutions to alleviate pain and allergies.


More on Medical Hypnosis

The most recent presentation on the placebo effect from Radio Lab looks at medical hypnotism   Mesmerism, “animal magnetism,” the “white coat effect” on doctors who wear them and on those around them.

And Paranormal Experience

William James. The Varieties of Religious Experience



No Permanent Enemies

Row, Lend Ballast or Go Gently from the Boat

Or, as it usually goes: “Lead, follow or get out of the way,” said at times of urgency, times that demand clear lines of authority.  lead, follow and get out

Times of urgency create pressure to follow the clear command of strong authority, to escape the panic of fear and confusion. Anyone who seems to have some idea of a clear direction will be able to command forces.

In other times, in the lulls between storms,  the need for resolute action is no longer felt so urgently–the pressure is gone. The absence of any sense of urgency about hot spots and pressure zones is evidence of some kind of numbing effect as the environmental pressures continue to accelerate throughout the world, on so many levels–political, environmental, social, economic–of upheaval.

If we understand that the situation in the world is quite critical in some areas, then the need for deliberate action remains, yet it is being ignored, at the peril of many who co-exist in this small boat that is our shared environment, the Earth.

Row, Lend Ballast or Go Gently from the Boat

fishingOur relative comfort, in the developed nations, has led to the pervasive idea we are here on Earth to enjoy its richness. If we could see how precious is the beauty of the world, it would completely flip this idea that it is here for us to plunder. Yet we continue to plunder and continue to feel entitled to receive the benefits of a vast infrastructure of support as if children, or tourists on a cruise.

To see how precious the resources of the planet, to watch the devastation occur to species and environments, is to wake up to the fact that all hands on deck are here to assist a great enterprise, this world and all it contains, including all the achievements of humankind.

“You have come into the world at a great turning point, a turning point only part of which you will see in your lifetime. It is a turning point where your world gains contact with worlds in its vicinity. This is the natural evolution of humanity, as it is the natural evolution of all intelligent life in all worlds.” —Step 190 from Steps to Knowledge

First Get on Board

In most situations, leadership is nothing but following orders from on high, wherever that is deemed to be. A great deal of confusion exists in the world because of the many sources vying for claims of authority and old voices of authority being challenged.

And then there’s the confusion within each individual, the inner crisis of having an inner sense of being on Earth for a purpose while being lulled into thinking that purpose is for their own edification or enjoyment. This would be in the pockets of relative affluence where survival needs are taken for granted. The affluent as well, of course, are subject to ensuring the survival of their customary way of living. The need to get on board as part of the crew–to understand there are no passengers, only crew–is pervasive throughout all levels of relationship, in marriage and family and in organizations.

Freedom for Dedicated and Coordinated Purpose

The inner crisis–wait, was I given this gift of life for a reason? What must I accomplish here in my time on Earth?–burns like a festering wound or other outbreak of simmering unease, a pressure that can be displaced or ignored until it reaches urgency to more pronounced effect.

Navigating through this journey on Earth at this critical time, it becomes ever more clear this ship is not designed as a pleasure boat for the few. Hence the upgrade to the old bark of an order to get in line fast (“lead, follow or get out of the way”) to the analogy of the crew on a ship, a crew that unfortunately will face casualties in the storms to come–some will get washed overboard who are not paying attention:

“Row, lend ballast or go gently from the boat.”

Religious freedom is a rare thing in the universe, when you realize the stakes in allowing individuals to have a feeling of righteous ownership over their personal sovereignty, haphazardly following a higher power seen only to themselves.


There is only one boat

Often, there is no other boat! No “Planet B” where we can go work out our differences. Situational ethics boils the question down to the bare essence–if you had to choose, what would you choose. Not all situations fit that lifeboat situation, the challenge there to be prepared when the situation does call for nothing but pure self-protective, self-directed LEADing!!! when so often following or getting out of the way will suffice the needs of the day.

Are you really taking that with you?

So check your baggage–everything you carry will ultimately result in Option #1, to syncretize (or not, of course), which is compromise, of course, but it must be understood as an evolutionary skill that has value. Because it works.

The burdens we carry are as mysterious as the great treasures of the Kingdom within, so no shame in maintaining the mysterious.

Only to understand there are few options that boil down to

  • Lead, follow, get out of the way.
  • Syncretize, argue or run. [True leadership quite rare?]
  • Join or do not join:

. Many, many choose to “leave the boat” on a momentary basis or long stretches, so checked out, swept so far downstream, mercy is all that can be offered as they race by, dragged by heavy weights they must release before able even to cope with sounds of rescue.

Lead, follow or get out of the way?

Many, many find safety in drifting away from the tide of the new, the wave of power building that first responders will grasp and be ready to move with. Many now are reading the signs of current events as if to reinforce a hidden belief that God looks out for God’s favorites.

Option #3 has serious trade-offs but will affect the majority of all who live:

  1. To abdicate is suicide.
  2. To compartmentalize is compromise.
  3. Denial is consequential.